**** I’ve been working on this for a few weeks, and couldn’t seem to put my little man down long enough to get it finished. Anyhow, here it is…
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we have faith to believe
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
I was listening to this song the other day on my way to the grocery store. It was one of only a few times I’ve left SBR at home, and it gave me time to think and pray without interruption. In that moment I realized that all of our trials and heartache were a way to draw me nearer to Him. That because of my trials, I have decided to live my life letting Him be in control and in utter awe of His greatness. I feel far more blessed with the gift that SBR truly is. I’ve struggled to find time to blog because I am spending most of my time with my sweet baby and I couldn’t be happier.
My pastor recently relocated, and I was so sad to see him and his family go. It was because of my pastor that I started this journey of blogging in the first place. He gave me so many words of wisdom and questions to ask myself, and I am so appreciative for everything he’s done for me. During his last sermon with us, he talked about living out Christianity and not shouting it out. He spoke of truly experiencing God— with that, my mom leaned over and nodded toward SBR, she said,” I’m experiencing God now.” And I couldn’t help but agree.
I wake up each morning in awe of His greatness and faithfulness. I blogged several times about the song “Great is Thy Faithfulness” and I now know exactly what it means. I look at SBR’s sweet little face and I can’t help but feel overcome by His glory! He is my miracle! I’m enjoy this blessing (I feel like I FULLY understand what it means to be blessed). My healing did come through tears and sleepless nights, but lead me on a journey to happy tears and sleepless nights with a bundle in my arms. Not only did I get my heart’s desire, I got a closer walk with God. I want to sing His praises and show off my blessing as much as possible. I’m so in love!
Thank you for the blessing of SBR. He is love and he is how I feel closest to You. Amen.
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